Leave Me Alone

When I see crowd around me , I want to go to one corner and be with silence . I feel like hearing the sound of white noise . My mind refuses to accept people . may be because I have been lonely far too long . I never came to know when loneliness became my only friend and being alone became my only habit . 

Suddenly all things around me turn black and then all turns bizarre ! I am not able to absorb anything . Words , letters , criss cross my minds . All I am left is with food for thought . I feel so tied up with worries of my own , some worries which neither have a face , nor a name but they worry me deep inside . Some nameless , faceless things make me mindless and create turmoil all through my heart and I don't even know whom to tell about it . 

When with people , My heart leaps to utter just three words " Leave Me Alone " . Because unknowingly I love it that way . I have come to like being with myself , my thoughts however depressing they may be . 

Loneliness precipitates down my expression . I alone can know what is going inside me , all thoughts messed up . I yet make my best efforts to hide the bruises inside with a smile on my face . Its hard , Yet I am now used to such hardness's . No one will ever know why I'm crying . Silently My hearts turned to stone and all I now want is to be left alone . LEAVE ME ALONE

Powerplay

Am definitely not gonna write about Cricket here . I am gonna very briefly tell about the Junior Church Annual camp with the theme POWERPLAY held on January 14 - 16 at Ramnad . Songs , skits , groups , sandhya sessions . I thoroughly enjoyed . I took the group for kids below 8th std :) I was happy . Stayed in akka's home . Had a great time together with Nimal and Nithya . All stories at the night . Talking about our Childhood days when we found happiness when we 6 stay together . Niruba , Nimal , Nithya , Livingston , Godwin( my brother ) and myself . Playing cards , shuttle , going Church together , telling the same lies to all our parents , simply sitting with books :P . My world revolved around them . Good old days came to an end years before . All are scattered . Nimal working for TCS , Nithi lecturer , Nirubs married and now a mother for two kids , Livi Lecturer , myself still a student :( . ok coming to the Powerplay . I am addicted to one song I learnt there . " Paathai theriyaamal alaindhen , paavam niraindhe indhe ulagil " Got tears when I heard the song . I really feel like walking in my own ways which I never Should :( Am praying Nothing should be against the ways of Lord . Just loved those three days :) 

A Break from Blogging

Its been months I took leave from blogging . Its not that I'm busy but I'm struck with the things happened in life . Many good things happened and not so good things happened . Just don't know with which I should start writing . Need a lots of time to recollect all the things . When this year started, I thought there will be a tragedy at the end of this year , say September . But the tragedy started in the first month itself . Blinking Blinking . Still blinking . okay let me try to put my emotions in words in the coming posts.