Words Of Comfort

Even though I engage my time with my parents, friends, sisters, I'm still feeling hopeless. I knew that the only solution for all my problems is in Christ. So with a word of prayer, When I opened my Bible expecting Christ to talk to me, He did :) :) I had lot of questions unanswered. One of those is should I still keep confessing the promise verse God gave me years before and should I still claim it??. God replied "You must of course, continue faithful on a firm and sure foundation and must not allow yourselves to be shaken from the hope you gained when you heard the Gospel". Col 1:23. after reading this verse, my hopes are really higher. I'm hoping something favorable to me is gonna happen in few days. I have only few months left. Am crying out, praying for the same thing. With full hopes I slept off that night. 

The very next day when I again opened my Bible to read, God again spoke with me "So also will be the word that I speak - it will not fail to do what I plan for it. It will do everything I send it to do" Isaiah 55:11. Am sure the verse you gave me will never turn to you without fulfilling its work. I'm holding that verse very tightly just confessing it everyday. Now I really trust you so much Lord. My hopes are in you. Lord even before the word comes out from my mouth, You knew it. You knew the plans you have for me. Be more open I need your guidance. I need your love. I need you. You are the fulcrum of my life. My focus is in you and will always be.

Recent Days

Am done with my theory exams. Practicals date are yet to be announced. I just don't know what I'm going to do next. But for now, I'm spending much of my time striving to achieve perfection in every aspect of my life. A very long, lonesome and scary days. My call to Debe lasts for some one hour daily. I'm very glad that when she is down am here to life her up and when I am , she is there through comforting words and verses. Though we are not near, We still hold hands which gives strength to live, a reason to smile, a shoulder to cry and hands to wipe away the tears. Everyone in this world needs a good friend but not everyone gets that. But am lucky, thankfully. The road of life is not easy, we both are slipping a few times but we will raise ourselves up and will reach the best place soon. At least a life with full of peace !!! Hope God is kind enough and grants His grace upon us that we get a peaceful life. 

But I wish to stand as an example that "Someone who trusted Lord in all the ups and downs". I will trust you Lord even if my loss is bigger than I could bear.

Strong Memories

When I was 9 years old, my school closed and my parents were transferred to an other place which is 60 Kms away from our town. As my mom had promotion we were all eager to move to that place. I dint make any friends there. But my brother did easily with my dad's colleagues families kids who are five in number. As days passed, I also joined them as six. We six shared all the normal school and college experiences. We were so different in ages but we were friends regardless. Niruba is the biggest of us in final year MCA, followed by Nimal in B.E 2nd year, Nithya in 10th, Godwin 9th, Livingston 9th, and finally me 7th :):) too small :P They were my friends and my confidence.We always feel the genuine love for one another from the depth of our souls.We always had a smile, a joke, a shoulder or and an ear to lend one another. In fact our favorite thing to do was to have our parents drop us off at Nirub's home, where we will have all long talks with no concept, playing shuttle, carom board, cards, mocking, walking, riding, birthday parties, trip to ooty and hearing songs with few photo clicks.

Our parents had been best friends. We grew up next door to each other, played our way through. I could hardly sit in the class just anticipating the next time I would see them and the evening we would spend together. Being around them is some of the happiest times I had ever experienced. Unfortunately all good things must come to an end so as this happiness. We moved to an other place because of parents transfer again. It was December 23,2005 We shifted our house to Madurai with the feeling which I can't express without tears. Its been seven years but We continue to learn about each other and grow closer!!! 

I drifted back to these memories as I am staying in Nirubs home for my exams.    

Late Night Talks

My sister and I sat in the chair with our large printed materials of the next day's examination (Computers in Education). We were catching up our past seven years of life and hours were not just long enough. Sure We had talked on the phone and occasionally met. But the calls were long distance and it was rare to find a moment when our parents were not around.We discussed her new life as a mother, her latest interview, her pains and happiness. We rarely had late night talks but We found time after seven years to fill our ears with stories and hearts with love. She slowly shared more and more of her own life with me and that made me feel more open with her. We shared experiences and hopes, frustrations and fears. I never knew that my sister will become my friend and it happened that night....Niruba

A Different VBS

Was really waiting for this particular five days( May 21-26) to spend with those loving kids of Mudhugalathur. The day was nearing and I had to get permission from my mom to go. After she moaned, groaned and procrastinated her reply for some 12 hours, She finally agreed. Packed things, went to the office for van, got my window seat, placed headphones in the ears. A small guy sat near with me whose name I never wanted to hear. Very strange and highly irritated when I heard that name, drifted back to those memories and ended up with tears. Aarambamey apdi !!!

Anyways reached the place around 2 and I was all excited seeing those old faces and the new ones as well. As always had a shower as soon as I reached, had food and a little nap. Evening had practice, I sang songs, I don't know I dint sing well in fact I couldn't. Why because the name I heard in the morning sent chills up my spine and neck. A feeling of lost, worthless, confused. But somehow managed wearing a plastic smile. Went in groups to plan for the next day program. Suddenly my mobile ringed loudly after the dinner. It was my friend Blesson from Chennai. He is the one who strikes my mind when I hear the designation "Childhood friend". We both seldom talk but we love each other so much. Its been ages seeing him. His call went on for an hour and old friendship is renewed that night. 

 After hearing Deby,Geetz and Aki in phone tried to sleep. I really missed them cos they 3 were together in Chennai :( :( I tried to sleep but then I couldn't as usual. woke up around 4.30, did my prayers and went for refreshing. In the silent hours of devotion in the morning, My mind started to trouble me again. Wanted to just escape from those silent hours and hear some happy stories from my friends. Aki called and kept talking to change my moods and She finally did it. After the breakfast, four of us headed to our Keela Karmel village for VBS. It was super good I really enjoyed being a part of it. Kids actively participated. By 3 we were back to the place where we stayed the previous night Periya Ilai village. But the sad thing is that as my exams were commenced in three days, I had to leave the VBS and got to reach my exam centre the next day for receiving the hall ticket. I couldn't spend more than a day with them :( :( But even that single day I enjoyed being a part of the team.

And people who read it may have a question now , In what way this VBS is different as the title says????I will tell you why. Its completely a missionary Vbs where some 50 people from different parts join together and conduct Vbs in the 15 villages around Mudhugalathur. 50 are those who are all participated in their church Vbs and still eager to proclaim the Gospel for the persons in those villages. We stay together, have practice sessions, split into groups, have food and in the morning we go to our respective villages for conducting Vbs. The place we stay wont meet all the necessary needs but once in a life time you should have these kind of experiences like sleeping in the open ground, shower in the pool and a queue for food and rest rooms !! :) 

Readers if you are interested in joining hands with us in the coming years , you are most welcome.